The Chill of MeltingThe loving hands which shaped these feathersbade me fight the fire and forsake the water,find the space between.Then those hands released me from our cage,and from my mind all was gone.The empty openness of the skywas the same as that of my mind.Curiosity flew to me on her silver wingsand, landing on my back,bade me soar.She flew into my throat and sat in my heartwarming her iced hands at the fire of my freedom.She bade the flames burn brighter,for her hair was tangled with frost,her eyes had become crystals of ice,and snow now flowed through her veins.She sang to me a song of winter,and in the spring sunI sprung from the cold shadows.Her breaths of mist filled my wingsand chilled my blistering skin.Her icy tears streamed from my ember eyes.She gathered the cinders in her icicle fingersand cooled my burning fear.But as she sang her song,the fire bade me fall.Curiosity’s laughter screamed in my ears.As the ashes swirled like snow,I floated past the soft
LabyrinthDarkness will, in this maze,scream in the ears of wanderers.Darkness will, in this labyrinth,crawl into the hearts of men.Darkness will, in this endless hall,silence escaping words and drag the rain from eyes of children.Darkness will, in this prison,prevail.
ColorlessFeel openness around you,lending its strength to the worn woodbending beneath youand holding you up.The trees clutch you close to their chests,comforting your unseeing eyes.In the quiet around youblooms the silent flower,your own breathing the only thing to soundalongside the avian lullabiessinging the sun to cool slumber.Swallow the birds’ calls,keeping the chill of the night from your skin.Hear the trees’ heartbeat,beating a rhythm for your own.Breathe in the silencepooling about you.Because when you’re aloneyour empty eyes can see.
Red LeatherMy eyes kissed the tough wagon,“I’m afraid I’ve surprised you” said the wheel,as red leather rocks took the shock and flew.They flew twice as high as the wall,flew past the stars and grew into the moon,as the clouds sang, loud proud and true.The frog sat inside the mailbox,as someone pushed a pile of post,the wide face swung forward and bit.Paper bruised and cut its poor throat,so our little frog melted to soft mudand snow fell on the hot tarmac.Wavering heat feasts on bones,bones disowned by the scrap dogs.Children mutter proverbs in silence,their eyes lamps of sugar and spiceand as the gasping earth drinks its tea,lambs die and no one hears their cries.
Away From HomeChantel walked along the boring, grey hallway like she did everyday on the way to group therapy. Walking down those halls really reminded her how much she hated the color grey. The walls were grey, the ceiling was grey, the furniture was grey, the sky outside was often grey; the color grey seemed to be a pandemic and, the first point of infection was the building she now lived in. She was an inpatient at a sanitorium surrounded by bucolic fields, trees and, as Chantel had figured when she arrived, nothing else. Thinking about the surrounding countryside reminded her of how she had been dropped at Mountainview Sanitorium by her untenably furious parents just a week ago. However, it seemed like years since she was sitting in the leather back seat of the family Volkswagen, duffel bag at her feet. The door to group therapy and the face of her friend Claire woke her from her reverie.“Dude, lets go! Doc is gonna kill us if we’re late again,” Claire smiled as she remembered
~~~When my heart searches for home,You are whom I long for.
Feel like shit? Read this. Hey you. Yeah you, reading this right now at this very moment. You are awesome. No, really, you are. You may not believe me, but it's true. You don't see it because you're upset right now. Whatever you're going through right now, whatever has upset you or turned your life upside down, just know that it won't last forever. Nothing good lasts forever, that's true, but nothing bad lasts forever too. Eventually whatever you're going through will pass, you'll move on through healing over time, and you'll be able to be happy again someday, don't worry. As long as you don't give up. You may never completely get over it, or it may take years or more to move on from, but I can promise as time goes on the pain will become less and less. It may feel like no one gives a fuck about you, and you may want to give up on living, but please don't. I can promise atleast one person out there gives a fuck. And if no one does, then I do. If you have no friends, I ca
Coffeeguts pile over whitesheets and blankets.i spilled them to youlast nightand you still saidi looked lovelya black sticky stain.how many chemicalscan your stomach handlebefore you have to drown me?how much bitternesscan you swallow? ~~~you are mycream and sugar, darling.and it tears me in halfwhen you split your skin.if you aren't carefuli might not be able tosip you up again.i am a powdery shadowcold autumn breezesand breathless cloudsbut if i could keep youbreathing, my world might bea little more alive
FourFour words So simpleSo small.FourAnd I'm terrified to say them most of all.I'd be admitting itAnd then there would be no stopping.Let me live in the land of denialWith lies on every corner. Those who matter to me come firstAnd my honesty would only hurt themOr would they be relieved I can admit it?I dare not whisper the words In fear of someone hearing.But I long to scream themTo set myself free.But I want more than anythingFor you to be happySo darling, can you smile for me?I'd love to see that pretty grin of yours.Will I tell you the words?Only when you're okay againBecause precious, you matter more than I.
WeightWeightThere is a weightYou asked me to hold.(Just for a while,Just for a while.)My tendons strain and snap,I lack your Atlas strength.The crushing force of gravityMakes me weak, makes me sore.Take it back, take it back,But you’ve gone away.I’m sinking down, I’m sinking down.The water rises to my throat.Pushing down, rising upDrowning and drowning and drowning.Take it back, please take it back,Where have you gone?I’m pinned beneath this weight,With water to my nose.My lungs fill up with salt,Choking and screaming and breathingOnly freezing thickness of water.Where is that mild friend oxygen?Where has he gone?My stinging eyes are blind here.I cannot to escape, unwillingTo shed this leaden snareWherein I dwell confined.By You.I grip it tightly.Surely I will die,Sweet air has left my bloodcompletely.I lay back and let black water take me,Frozen fingers loosen on Your weight.And all at onceit falls awaycompletely.I watch i
GayI am gay.I'm not a disease, I'm not a problemI'm not an afflictionI don't need treatment.I don't need helpI'm not sickI'm not confusedI'm not a sin.I am gay.I'm your daughterYour sisterYour friendYour co workerYour classmateYour acquaintanceA complete strangerI am gay.I need love, just like youI need smilesI need supportI need a hugI need a friendI need a familyI need acceptanceI need understandingI need youI am gay.I know what love isI know what pain isI know what hate isI know what life isI am gay.And I need you to love meThe same way you loved me before you knewI am gay.And I have experienced hateFrom more people than just youI am gay.And I wont change.I wont give up.I wont back down.I wont pretend.I wont lie.I wont deny.I wont hide.I wont hurt.I am gay.And that's okay.
Let me Go.I scrub and claw,and the water runs clearbut the blood on my handsis red as ever,it beats and pulseslike the blood in my veins.Turning my back,I'm giving up.I'm returning to my haven,not so safe,not so sound,where I scream.